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I find it weird.
Learning one thing that you have difficulty to ace.
Then you have a desire to learn more things.
It is like tying your shoelace and trying to walk.
You have not perfected one thing..
You move on to the other JUST FOR FUN!
Today class was okay despite having an IMPATIENT Team member.
He is totally GAY UH!
Like have some patience.
Real men are SMOOTH!
Fake men are impatient and possessive.
You need a mirror.
Maybe next week I will give you the mirror.
I hate control queens.
When they tries to make sure everything should go their way.
Especially when I feel that I know best.
She should just disappear.
Acting like she is close to everyone.
Making nuisance stuff.
She disgust me.
Saw Alin today.
Been awhile.
Talking about friends.
Some old friends should be scraped off my mind.
Even I acknowledge them these few days.
Their reaction was not as big as it used to be.
It is as though I am no one they know.
I can accept it if I had done that to some people close to me.
But the actually fact is...
I did not.
School was tiring.
I hate losing brain cells.
I mean I can have a huge brain like an alien.
Well that is cool.
Sometimes I felt like it is best if I......
I cannot help it but to look on the human behavioral.
Why do they notice that bit of you and thinks that you are special.
I hate being special.
I want to be normal.
For all my years of living.
I have been living under eyes.
Judging me on whatever I do.
If I let my hair down, they would cut it.
If I tie my hair up, they would pull it down.
What you want from me?
I am flattered.
But I am human too.
I do not understand why I can do it
And why you cannot.
I believe it is not about inborn.
But because of confidence and practise.
Do not be over confident.
Or else you will not have an open mind to your own mistakes.
Be humble so that people will respect you.
I doubt anyone loves arrogant people.
If they do, good for you.
It is so easy to get those kind of friends these days.
Get real.
Get fake.
Get cheap.
And you'll lose it.
For whatever reason.
I am totally disgusted when people have trust issues with me.
Yes I know that...
But you have to make use of what I have.
Not everything have to go your way.
You are running left when I am going across the museum to get to the right side.
Probably you would not understand it.
You are too dumb to understand the theoretical language.
I am dead beat nowadays.
Rehearsals and practise was so tiring.
Especially with people who do not know how to cool off and take a breather.
I mean, it is like no joke just work.
It is really hard.
Stop getting worried about me.
My face is naturally like that when I think
Or shall I say
Dancing with my brain.
I am not panicking or confused.
I am just going through.
Thanks for the concern though.
Never the less
Class was less stressful today.
Iris, we understand...
LOLOLOL
Stop talking about love will ya.
Cause I know something about love.
Love is not a feeling.
Love is a commitment!
You may say it is dumb comment
But it is true.
They say love fades.
What makes you keep coming back is not love
But loyalty and commitment to the person.
Just wrote some nasty entry.
I erased it.
Just to feel like I blog it but did not.
I want to believe but cannot seem to believe as you say love is endless.
But then you say love will fade.
Then you say its true love.
Then you say its puppy love.
Then you say you are ready to get married as she is the one.
Then you say for now.
Then you say feeling may change.
Then you say you will know it when the right one appears.
I am so confused.
Do not tell me it is okay.
As I chose not to be okay god damn it.
You like always repeat the same line.
It is Okay. It is Okay!
Like how wise are you to tell me what to do.
I hate people who tell me what to do.
Well......
Sleeping.
I felt hair fall on part of my cheek.
Too tired was I...
To wake to see who is by my side.
We wandered into worlds.
Worlds of our own.
Her hair was still there.
Straight and silky.
I woke up realising.
Who was she.


End up cabbing home.
I need to get some rest after the tiring training.
First we have B-Boying session.
Then after that I have to go practise for 6th of August!
Come support SGC alright.
If not I'll find all your virgin asses and SODOMIZE them!
Get real.
Larry told me that I have shown a lot of improvement and potential.
He said I got musicality.
Despite being a Dumb-O-Sucker!
Then during the Cypher Battle.
He put so much pressure.
That I see all eyes on me and I cannot perform.
I need to come out with breaking routines and recovery routines.
Class today was ok..
I felt that there is so much more missing.
We could have enjoyed more if we let down our hair.
Like enjoy more
Lesser hardwork
Nevertheless, come down to support me okay
6th of August.
I will be performing the opening session for SGC!
Nevertheless
Masters of our action,
We are.
Not know us,
That others are looking.
Looking for the flaws.
Another Cold day.
We have been in the warmth
For days.
I missed this feeling
It is like missing a birthday
which is not yours
It is like tasting food
Which never exist
Despair is far
But is still on sight
It is time for us
To get ready for the moment
Lets dance like Michael Jackson.
NOT!
More like Pussycat Dolls.
That is the upcoming performance of Styles Groovaz Crew.
Maybe if I am chosen.
I got to perform on 6th of August in school.
I do not know....
What I know is it is going to be a Girlie Routine.
Never the less.
Obstacles are meant to be jumped over not a detour.
Seok Hui loves dirty talk!
Talk about peen and her minds wander into giggles and laughter.
Mastura shall stop be reminded of the dirty talk when tutoring the poor primary 3 boy.
He is, I think, is innocent.
Haiqal shall stop pinkie promise.
Cause now it looks so wrong.
For me....
Nothing?
Well I shall name today a Straight Day.
Haiqal straightest Day!
Bunch Puss Sees.
My letter to the nation
Never thought.
No it never crossed.
It could ever affect the other countries.
It is only scribblings.
My idea.
My plan.
My passion.
Bad it may look.
Say you say me.
But we are the same.
Master of our own mistakes and
Perfect we thought we are.
And should be.


Youtubed my day today.
I was stunned by Phillip "Pacman" Chbeeb.
He was a fucking good dancer.
He inspire me.
Did random stuff today.
Singapore sucked.
Gave in to Liverpool via cheap scores.
Failing to score when there is opportunity.
It was not a great game.
It was a slow game.


Today has been a blast.
But could have been better if Haiqal have joined us.
Or we have gone cycling.
Nevertheless.
I had a pinch of fun.
I discovered another type of settlers today in Boat Quay today.
Played multiple types of games.
My favorite is Dawn Under.
Despite being draggy, it is super hilarious.
I want to play it again.
Then played the usual game...
Taboo, Guesstures, Monkey Thingy, the truth or dare game.
Well today have been an experience.
Never to be forget.
It is a secret we share with our blog only.
Well, I hate to repeat myself.
I want to let you know that despite whatever you say.
I am headstrong and holding firm with my own beliefs.
Saw a glance of the fireworks.
Saw Larry.
Did not bother to say HI.
It is my life.

Disturbia Remix - Rihanna

Pure surprise.
When I see a lot of food
And my stomach is full.
I still feel like eating.
You know what I do.
Force vomit so I can eat everything again.
It was worth it.
I felt the pleasure of vomiting.
Call me sick.
But it kind of leave a undescribed feeling
Probably satisfaction.
Making a remix.
I wonder what will my noobass come out.
My pleasure is you pain.
Going to chill tomorrow.
My threadless tee have arrived.

To all RP students.
Please note to self not to rely on one person's answer.
As it can be wrong.
I am not a genie.
Neither am I god.
I am just trying to suggest.
And please when you testify please justify it.
Never say....
Because repeat the method.
Always say....
Why you put the particular object there and not other place or switch it with another object.
BENGAP SIAK!
Let the tears dry on the cheeks
It feels like it happened
But never exist.
You were once fooled.
He feels like a victim now.
Go on let your tears dry on your cheeks.
What a way to start my day.
You could have held it till the night comes.
But you ruin my day.
My bus journey was filled with pointless eyes.
I do not know if I regret or do I deserve it.
Predicted my GPA today.
With just counting my UT1 score.
40% daily grade, 60% of UTs.
My daily grades have already granted me a conditional pass.
Which I hope can help me attain at least a B grade.
GPA of 3 or more
Nevertheless...
I still got 16 more A's to attain....
I will do anything to get it motherrr!
Today was super high.
We went chair-racing outside class.
I won one time against Seok
I lost one time because Haiqal was helping to push Seok.
Not fair...
I got Buzz!
Nevertheless...
Darshini was also unusual.
Singing DO RE MI - Sound of Music
Well...
Being me, I joined in too!
We made the rock version.
Have mini-DJ jamming session in class.
Haiqal was totally ON!
Lets just say...
You got so much to learn, BOY!
You've got lucky to have me as a friend...
LOL!
I know you guys cannot agree more.
I do not understand why some left halfway.
I mean the lesson is on Phenotype and Genotype.
How hard can it be?
I really question your will power.
If a cat can climb a tree.
Why can't you?
If a pig can snort.
Why can't you?
If Michael Phelps can swim
Why can't you?
If your dad can work.
Why can't you?
If your mum can clean.
Why can't you?
If your moral says no.
Why are you going against it?


Every words ends tonight
The tsunami prediction was invalid.
I was disappointed.
But at least got eclipse
I was so mesmerised today.
Not that of eclipse.
I saw my classmates dressing up.
HAHA!
Maybe they are used to it.
To me I felt that I was out of my skin.
Always thought that I would wear it outside school.
Nevertheless.
The lesson today was boring.
I did not prepare anything.
And it was like all no lesson learnt.
Except how to make resume and dos and do nots in an interview.
Just to note something I missed out yesterday...
Haiqal's laptop dropped from the air to the floor.
The facilitator lift the chair with his laptop wire entangle around it.
And ABRACADABRA!
The magic works like that.
It is still working though.
Now that is what I call...
SHOCK PROOF!


Music never fails to impress me.
When the beat drops hard
My mind will wander aimlessly
Is like a reflection period.
No matter what the song is,
I go back in time judging how humans behave.
How I behave.
Why we did those stupid things we did.
Why we are different
Basically it arouse my creative mind into imagining myself eating the heads of birds flying across the bus.
Imagining the birds as the venoms I eye spyed in the class.
Hayden, I feel for you.
Though you are what you are.
You are being put into the shoes of the weakest link.
I know you know.
Maybe its too soon to see for you.
I saw the light brighter than you.
Chances are you have no friends.
Just those who pity you and those who make fun of you.
Nevertheless.
Just a thinking process.
It does not matter how hard you fall.
It is how you rise back up which matters.
You may find it painful when all comes crashing.
But how do you rise back up?
Do you still stay down and let them have a cheap shot.
Or do you want to start from the base 1 to reach the summit that you almost reach previously?
My poster to Darshini for Chiron IG have been accepted by her senior
All hail the Shark!
Currently obsessed with the electronic again.
I now realised that I am a closet fan of Taufik Batisah.
It is obvious that he is good.
However the thing about him is that he is...
How should I put it.
Similar in a way with Zachary Quinto.
I do not know where I come up with that.
The song he sang in APM...
KepadaNya..
Yes I watched APM!
Believe it ass wipers.
I only watched that part where that song came up and Siti Nurhaliza sang.
Her Cindai was like.......
My kinda tea...
It was super haunting!
I do not know why I blog about APM when it happened last saturday.
I feel that I am getting too direct nowadays.
I have to sugarcoat my language and make every description sounds good.
How about this.

It occurs to me that you have a fragrance that no one in a thousand mile can miss
Just like a thousand bottled perfumes shattered down on the concrete floor.
Your scent is the most powerful thing one could have.
You are what you are....
A pile of shit!
Can?


I saw the RC members throwing the Singapore flag down on the grass patch near the area.
Was so angered by it.
Although I know that I am not a very supportive Singaporean.
It is though they are hypocritical.
I mean you will look at the RC members as the biggest supporter of the country.
But in the end they do not seem to care.
Angered by that.
Like what the fuck.
They arte the one whom are suppose to set an example for the citizen to follow
And in the end they are giving an example of throwing the nation's flag on the field.
Is that disrespecting?
I got no more comment.
You should go reflect on your actions.

Never the less.
Had a great time going out with sis and aunt to eat at Swensens.
Well I felt that I have experience retribution by having my food to be served late.
I have been a waiter and forget the order of the diners causing the food to arrive late.
Serve me right.
That I can close one eye.
Although they make me look like a cheapo by giving me a complementary Soup of the day.
Quite nice actually.
HEHEHE!
My third Aunt was like coming to our house.
When we say NO!
She insisted.
Like we are out having fun.
Some people just do not get it.
They also just arrived.
They what is wrong by fetching us because it is raining?
Then we were all drenched when reached.

But it was all good...
Cause in the end.
She only wants to pass somethings and we karaoked.
I am a disgrace to malay community.
I do not know much malay songs.

SHITA! Good luck with the new HMM clones tmr!
And don't forget to make new friends.
Or should I say, Make new old friends.
I hope you know what I mean....

"Archaeologists in Italy have found a pair of human skeletons
Their arms still wrapped around each other in an eternal embrace.
The Archaeologists unearthed the skeletons
Dating back to the late Neolithic period outside Mantua,
Few miles south of Verona, the city of Shakespeare’s story of doomed love, Romeo and Juliet.
Believed to have been a man and a woman and are thought to have died young.
The two bodies, which cuddle closely while facing each other on their sides, were probably buried at the same time, an indication of a possible sudden and tragic death.
As known a tale of 2 worlds."

Done with proposal in one day.
At last.
Unbelievable that I am the earliest.
and Darshini was late.
WHAT!!!
You know we will always support you on your decision.
As much as we want you to move on.
If a part of you wants to stay, that is where you belong.
Try again.
If you fail we will always be there to catch you.
We need to make mistakes so that we can learn from it.
Till then.....
Having fun in class by playing pranks at other classmates.
Change the wall paper of their laptops and phone with our extraordinary face.
Nevertheless, I think that today lesson is rather shagged.
Like I feel the WHAT THE FUCK feeling striking back at me again.
Its been 7 months since I felt that way.
Do not Mind that.
Let see for now.
I watched harry potter.
It is rather comedic
The best part is when Dumbledore told Harry that Harry needs a shave.
Well look whose talking.
I think dumbledore needs it more than Harry does.
Besides Harry do not need a shave but a BRAZILLIAN WAX!

Everyone have been in the mood for love these few days.
For obvious reason.
I find it dumb.
Sad to say.
I am weird.
Love is a word human being came out with to make life complicated.
Whatever.
I got nothing to proof..
So long that I know, its all that matters.
Not going to repeat the same old stuff again and again.
Never the less.
School was about bio today, which makes it fun.
I missed the time where I squirted some ammonia into SHIT's eye.
It was really not on purpose.
I thought no content inside the plunger.
I hope nothing of your eye will become abnormal.
I miss the time when I hint disturb Siti till she laugh and made Winnie laugh.
I miss the time when I have PE acting like I am such a noob in sport so that people will underestimate me.
And they would not judge me if I made any mistake.
And if I am good, they will be AMAZED!
I fucking love that feeling.
I miss running around the school for multiple rounds.
I miss recess where we sit in class or staircase eating meals from our lunch box.
I miss the time when we roll our eyes when kids try to be defiant but the whole class do not agree with what they are against with.
I miss the time when we go ARE YOU READY EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH
Mujahid hope you can do like how Chong AJAR KAU!
WAHAHA!
AMBEK KAU UBAT - tagline.
Those super MATREP days are finally over.
Thank goodness.
And lastly I miss carrying art file through and fro.
Cause I am proud of my art work.
Usually put the nicest at the front so everyone can see it.
If I have a choice.
I'll work there one day
I change the principal.
That glass sandals soya sauce hunter humpty dumpty Low Chee...........
Hope she never read this.
Wait I doubt she even knows how to use the internet.
Noob and LONELY ASS!
No one wants to ride you cause you look like a Hippopotamus.


Unbelievable that I am able to have a partner?
Well me too.
I do not believe in relationship.
I just believe in humans pursuing what they are destined to do.
I do not believe in love.
As love I give to everyone.
Nobody have more.
But some have less.
I hate to be able to commit to relationship when I cannot even commit to myself.
I hate to say the 3 fucking words that makes the world seems better.
When it does not.
Everything will turn out to be right at the very beginning.
So why have a partner when your friends makes you happy?
At THIS AGE?
For the most obvious reason.
You do not want to be left out.
Everyone have it why are you not?
Well I am most different from other people.
I give kisses to cheeks as I save my first kiss for someone.
If love is REAL!
GAY? or Having that moment to be special.
I pity those who wasted their kisses to relationship that will end one day.
Not mentioning sex.
I hate the thought of committing.
I hate the thought of breaking hearts.
I hate the thought of making promises I cannot fulfill.
I hate the thought of people asking me where am I? How am I?
I hate the thought of people asking me who is that?
I hate to hold hands.
I love space and air.

Until the right moment comes.
Where I know that she is right.
She must be having the same goal as me.
To never die alone.
To die knowing someone will bury you.
To die knowing I have not wasted god's gift of testicles.
To die knowing that I have made another generation.
To die knowing that Love is nothing, just that humans have to fulfill their purpose in life.


So it is obvious that I skipped the first few hours of school.
I just came school to have my understanding test.
It just occurs to me that some guys are way too dumb for girls.
Well like what the girls do best is take advantage of it like any of us human beings would.
It would be news perfect if you do not agree.
Like I saw this guy who gave his seat to this girl and rather seat on the floor of the double deck bus.
Like get real!
A gentlemen you thought you are but a weak link you are to them.
Girls would be girls.
In my absolute opinion.
Girls love to share, so why not share the seat rather than sacrificing your pride.
What if your parents were to see you sitting on the floor just because you want to look like a perfect gentlemen.
My parents in this scenario will mock me and tell me right to my face what a foolish son I am.
And they did not raise me to be duped by.
I feel so angry for that guy.
Many people were like...
Brains are not at the right places.
Think with your brains not with your heart for the right scenario.
Please!
Haters to the left!
I am a crazy ass nobody cares jackass
I just feel that sometimes I do things without thinking.
But most of the time I do think
But do not really give a god damn shit about it.
But today was a roller coaster loopy loopy orgasmic bracing anticipating cycle.
Start off by Cognitive processes.
Fuck was it frustrating that some things are sidekicked and slided off the testicles.
I know you probably do not understand what it means.
For me it is the same as fingering all the alphabets that will make this post a long one.
Then to the anticipated Understanding Test.
It was manageable although I find it worthless trying to figure out power this power that.
It was like getting power ups for digi-vice
Nevertheless.
I had a crazy trip home when we sat out to lunch.
Like fuck!
I was not even thinking of what that is coming out.
Super tired and sleepy.
It is weird that when I am tired that I tend to be all high and hyper.
Well, for you who know me.
I am obviously whiny and angry when I am extremely sleepy and tired.
So better luck next time.
Till then, wait till I murder you!
I am influencing myself with the sounds of Michael Buble and Maroon 5.
Damn do I feel so old.
I have the weirdest dream ever.
Not just a person in white and the background is dark.
He asked me for my hand to follow him.
But it was to eerie that I woke up.
Realising that it is 4 in the morning.
Thereafter my breakfast.
I went for a nap
Then I dreamt again of another thing.
Quite informative and coincidental.
The dreams tells me that my brother will come home at 7pm.
And also that this year have been unpredictable and
July and August will be the most unpredictable.
I do not know what it meant.
But I would just anticipate and foresee the future is dark.
Then in actual fact,
My brother came home soon after struck 7
Coincident?
I am seriously in need of money
Do not understand part of my life now
Everything is handed in to me.
I feel so ALONE and USED!
Everyone needs me for something.
Get the fuck out of the kitchen!
The hand-drill is in the ranch
Not here...
I probably rid you off with my butcher knife!
And spill your blood all over the floor and slide on it!
WEEEEEEE!

Draining myself off for the final run.
Hoping to get the consecutive A grade running for this last stretch.
Well up till now my grades have been well.
But I am just worried for my Understanding Tests.
I clearly am doomed as I did not studied a single shit.
Get real!
It is an open Laptop TEST!
Do you even need to study?
Nevertheless.
I paid the price today.
I did not study for science and hoping to at most get a D grade.
Anticipating fasting month.
I cannot wait!
So I can taste the oily, sweet, juicy and fragrant DENG DENG!
AHHHH!!!
Some more Geylang is so near!!!
I can break fast at East Coast Park and......
Everyone is stressing me to get serious.
I find it pressurising.
If you have another.
Do not influence me to have another.
And you have no rights to criticise me.
As I feel that I will be serious when I need to.
Now is time to have fun and enjoy life.
You can stress about love only when you are really feeling in your balls.
Until now lets mingle and prance around.
And I hate it when people flatter me 10000 times
I know.
You told me before.
I seriously am not gaining weight like hell by having these weird eating habits.
At home I had breakfast before going to school.
In school I ate for breakfast what I pack from home or what Win or Mas will buy for me.
Then lunch break sometimes I skip and sometimes cutlet chicken rice.
Then when school ends I will eat western.
Then when come back home I will eat what Aunt cooks.
So usually this is my eating cycle.
Not forgetting binging during TV and Mandy activities.
Anyone jealous?
This is what keeps me deprived.
I CANNOT GAIN WEIGHT!!!!
Surprised by how humans react.
When the the definition of the cliche FRENEMY is being put to test.
I have separate the Street from the Blonds.
Lame-ness not only came as part of the criteria.
What you need to be separated to the blonds is a PEA BRAIN!
And a mouth that is not connected to the Pea Brain of yours.
Currently I have categorised 2 females from my class to be...
Well you know.
Not only do they annoy me but their so called jokes were rather...
MADE UP!
They are not real at all.
Like how I know.
I know it okay.
The way your lips utter the words.
The way your eyes wander in search of ideas.
Just be real and you will be a great companion.
Do not make yourself look interesting.
You are who you are.
I know some of you are wondering who is the other BIMB!
Well....
Its no one you know unless the description sounds like you.
Well as for some other bimbs.
Talk with a brain and do the right thing at the right time.
Nevertheless, today's lesson was mainly poking noses in the wrong places.
And mainly an army building process.
I paid my bills.
Now I need to go shopping and start saving.
I need to get a job for the 5 week break.
The place have been calling for a special portfolio promotion.
Which I do not think I should pay to earn FAME!
Like think about it LEVIS ad?
Why should you pay for a job?
Should not you get paid for your services?
Like GET REAL!
SCAM!
Do not trust companies that ask you to pay to give your services.
God made what we have but not who we are.
You realise it when you know it.
AND I am sad as people claim that my actually age is 21 years old.
I am barely legal you guys.
And Barney is even old and haggard looking please!
He should be like 28 years old.
I have this deprivation.
It makes me so confused.
I wished that my heart can just tell me what I need.
Though I believe it is in the past.
I know that I can do something today to make it okay.
The thing is I do not know what it is.
Been busy again.
I do not know why!
I feel so not myself right now.
Sorry, you have wasted your time reading.
But I have pleased myself by ranting in this post.


Obvious is it not?
Today's lesson was downright boring.
Peh Ah, Queen, Bedah, Mak minah left half way through.
Pregnant facilitator is on leave.
So there is this gay facilitator.
Which I call MURPHY!
No! His name is not Murphy.
Forget his name already.
Reason why Murphy.
He talks like Robocop.
Walks like Robocop.
Look at people like how Robocop does.
His voice...... ROBOCOP!
So concluded Robocop.
However he is damn skinny.
Skinnier then me I must say.
His like Chuan Heng Skinny.
Nevertheless.
Being me.
I will point out stupid comments and stupid arguments that do not to be brought forth.
Obvious is it not?
Its all common sense.
I wish we can all cut his penis off and blend it so we can force him to drink it!
Like seriously get a brain!
I do not mind you being gay.
But just being a stupid open gay.
Is not cool.
Go get a pinata and ride on it.
Enough with discrimination.
Just excited to show somethings to Kak Pah!
Tomorrow is where I realise my purpose of the picture.
Pigs are disgusting.
But Snorting is cool!
SNORT!

For reference:
Now I Know My ABC
Clouds Within The Thunder

So its seems that I am addicted to raising my eyebrows.
I can already raise each eyebrow.
Just finding the perfect rhythm and synchronisation.
I cannot raise fast.
However today.
Uncle brought home live fishes and crabs.
I have fun time looking at it being slaughtered.
However, the crab was not slaughtered but heat up till death.
The fishes were still breathing when uncle cut their fins and stings.
I saw it wriggle in the sink.
As for the crab.
We put it in the stove and boil it.
Amazing ly that they have no blood flowing out of the crab when we eat it.
I wonder why.
Where did the blood go?
I was disappointed not having the sight of the crab's blood.
What color is their blood?
How does it look like?
Is it dense?
Or is it light?
I love Jeckhore.blogspot new look.
Inspired by Keane: Perfect symmetry.
Spend all you have earned.
And repeat the cycle everyday.
And you will end up like me.
I have no savings left.
Feeling so broke!
Resorting to taking silly jobs that some Fucking people have offered me..
Never mind that.
Today went accompanying aunt and sister to get a haircut.
Then we went shopping for groceries and they shop for some gems and crystals for their latest creation.
Somehow, I feel like my life is a never ending cycle of suffering.
I have known people who appears to always be there for me.
But tend to be so fucking sensitive that I must take care of what she thinks.
How am I suppose to know.
I think A you think B.
Get a grip of yourself.
Its not always bad you nitwit BITCH!
Thanks for always being there for me.
But it's time you think and spend more time on yourself than on me.
I have my time with you now you have to have time with you.
Stay close.
But stay relevant.
Sometimes life is a story.
You just have to fuck to make it interesting.



Obviously I miss my cat.
I am very deprived.
I love the way she massage my back with her strong paw.
I miss snuggling her!
She was almost human!
I wonder how she's doing.
So tomorrow I am going to meet my
BELOVED TRUE LOYAL BEST FRIENDS!
I seriously missed you!
Sorry for not wishing your birthday.
Sorry for not visiting you at work.
Obviously my blog seems to be not visited by anyone.
So I guess.
I have freedom of speech.
Not limiting myself to please your stuffed ear wax ear.
I really miss a lot of people.
Why do I feel so deprived.
Miss those days when I thought I have everything.
So today we learnt financial planning.
Like so coincidental that me and my sis was talking about getting a bank job.
Hehehe!
Italian BANKER!
haha!
Nevertheless.
I find it is hard to pronounce Zhang Zhen's name.
So I will call him Buzz from today!
And I named my excel Max.
I found similarity with insomnia, forever and closer.
I think I'm going to mash it.
I think I gain a few pound slacking and rotting at home.
Getting 3 meals a day sometimes 4 heavy meals.
Somehow.
I know The weight is going off soon.
My weight is always on the 50-55kg line.
Never less never more.
Do not go around telling me to go gym.
Been there done that.
Been going gym since sec 3 but nothing.
at least an hour max of 3 hours.
Did what my other friends did.
But I am still as skinny as ever.
I think it is about time I celebrate my weight.
I cannot change it might as well celebrate it.
Talking about health.
I have been infested with carbon monoxide.
I cannot breathe proper.
I think asthma is going to attack again.
I miss Hip Hop.
Farah, Shasha, Mint, Ani and Nepal!
I missed you all!
AHAHA!
Nevermind about missing.
I am going to me the Love of my life!
Kelly and Mashita!
It has been awhile!
Zingdo for life!
Oh yea.
Think about this.
Is that your natural hair color?
Aren't you suppose to be blond?