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It makes 2 singles to make 2
Woke up kind of late to get ready for the Ice Skating Trip
I missed those days where Ice-skating is cheap and not dreadful
I thought there was going to be a whole Village to come
But in the end it is us four AGAIN!
Ice skating was rather not up to my standard
I prefer Fuji Ice Palace
Nevertheless
We manage to pull through 2 hours of our lives for it
I felt that
If the rink was bigger
If the ice was smoother
It would be more fun
Ended up shuttle bus-ing to Marina Barrage
To chill-lax
Broke our fast at Marina Square
KFC have never tasted this good
Just cause I am hungry
I found so many things today
My friend can be a drunkard
My friend can be a Homo
My friend can be a Muscle-addict
My friends can be the one that make my head spin right round

Somethings are better left unsaid
To tell you that I am disappointed
To tell you that I am not transparent
To tell you the most distinct features of ourselves
To tell you just this
Seem so impossible
Last night
I had another experience again
I thought I saw you
But you were not
No you were not there
You rushed out of my way
Leaving me lying there
Just froze
I am not able to move
Sleep Paralysis
Am I too tired?
Am I too stressed?
Am I?
Narcolepsy?
Lucid Dream?
I moved my eyes
My body seemed immobilised
Panic Panic Panic
I hope it is not another visit
From an old Friend...
Fuck yeah man!
Fucking blogger is back on track
Nast!
Watched Final Destination 4 today...
It was the worst of Final Destination History
Of final destination
But it is one of the best gore movie this year
Orphan was better though
It was a quick movie
An hour plus
But I like the creativity
Although it is minimal
The actors are rather bad
if there is Ali Larter again..
It would be great
But she died...
In the past Final Destination
Have to finish my Mix by Tuesday
And guess what you fathersuckers
I am done with it
Over!!!
I shall start choreographing
Although this noob ass no nothing about shaking bootays
Or B-boying
Seriously...
I do not know
I just join hip hop to learn.
Peace fathers and mothers- TO BE!
Some of you may know
That Oasis have broke up
I feel so bumped
I teenage years of listening to their songs
Like!!!
Hope that Noel get a solo career
Nonetheless
My day filled with action packed boredom
Have to save some dime
To fill me through 31st and the stuff
The only rink that is available in Singapore
Is the Kallang Ice World
I feel that it is expensive..
$16.50 for 2 hours, skates applied
I remember those days which it was only $10 for a whole day there
There is no group discounts
Damn...
Jurong's Fuji Ice Palace
Have closed down I guess
Unless someone wants to go check it out

As astounding the night can be
I was bored in the earlier
I do not know what is wrong
Well maybe I know
Just that too much mandarin orange
But who cares
While everyone get their dosage
I was reluctantly happy to save myself
I must comment on our noob asses to manage a small pit fire
Well it did died down
But it is an effort
It was kind of boring
I shall say
I have to entertain myself to enjoy the nightfall
On the beach
Wondering if there is people on that other side who felt the same way
I felt on this night
I kicked ball all by myself
Though there was different people trying to play with
I entertain myself to watching kids mumble words in their little virgin voices
They were playing with the sand imagining and creating things which was never there
I talked to a small cat hoping that he will understand me
As the night fall deeper
I find myself feeling rather different
Feeling rather celebrative but quiet
I talked about a movie and a book that I kind of love
Although it is sadistic
I realise this post is kind of long
I will still go on
As we landed ourself on the jetty
We slack and kill sometime
Before we proceed to Mcdonald's
To have our post-midnight meal
I was forcing myself to eat
Head down to the stone place
To watch the sunrise
Napped there like a baby until someone nonsensically
Talked in pure mandarin and talk crap
Hilarious indeed
Then there were cockroach
And we shifted to this lovely shelter
Where I continue napping despite the pirate and UK robots talks
Sent Quin off
And thought of waiting for sunrise
But did not
Head back home
Goodbye sweet old day
We can only take so much
The last thing I want to do is getting drunk on the fasting month
Going to stone the night with my Support System
I wonder what we will do
Let the night worry for itself
Before we turn to stone
Migraine is getting the best of me
Having an interview later
Going to tear the motherfucking house down
In the Barbecue
I know we're All the same
It was suppose to be a nice day
Turned out to be a bad day
But having you -thoning
Makes me smile the widest today
It means that I have someone to bully besides Quin
It means that I have someone to do daft actions with besides Haiqal
It means that I have someone to argue with besides Iris
But it also means a hell of a painful time
Motherfucker!
I be heading down for job interview tomorrow
Cousin already got the deal
It means I too can do it
I miss my cat's presence
Everything is turning inside out upside down diagonally opposite and horizontally opposite
Everything is a mess
I need to breathe
I may look like the kid who has everything
But it is the most simplest thing that I do not have
Give me all the material stuff you can find
It still do not make me happy
Well maybe awhile
But not for long

You absent yourself out of my life since I was 12 years old
You think I am fine
But I am dying
It is like your bestfriend accidentally punch you
Although it hurts so bad
You still say "I'm fine, don't worry!"
You are suppose to be the closest
But your presence and absence do not mean a thing to me
Unless you are always there for me
I just want everyone to know that
Blogger is too giving me a spin on my head
But just that I think I get the hang of codes
And all
As you know my codes are not that complicated
I bet a two-year old can be taught doing this perfectly
That if they have the same fucking developed brain as mine
I resort to listening to Gorillaz today
Brings back the "Stone" age
Aunt have brought up a bittersweet memory
I felt uncomfortable
I nearly stopped eating
And head back to my room
I am super pissed off with her
Trying her best to make everything alright for me
When at the beginning
Fuck it man!


As photographs turns yellow
And fades into a blur
We still have our film rolls
Which we have burnt
Years before today
I wish I never run
I wish I never avoid
I could be someone
It is worth taking

When to watch The Proposal
Straight up, I did not like it
The humor was fresh and funny
But the plot was somehow predicted
I like surprises
Well this movie
Is no surprise
Wend wasting time in arcade
Playing air hockey
Which I sucked
Playing Shooting game
Playing Dance Dance Revolution
Playing Metal Slug II
I never thought arcade is a good use to kill time
Head down to MakanSutra
Tasted their seafood and satays
Was kind of worth it
But I tasted better foods
At the same price
I stoned
Again
Like how I used to
I feel so yesterday
I do not want to be the person I was
No
I would not
UT is finally over motherfuckers!
Next is to look forward to new class
Thank you Fatin for the short message
Very thoughtful
I hope will be able to see you during the barbecue
We kind of slack in class waiting for the time to pass by
I felt that I vent a lot of anger on the wall and the WALL
Yes I repeated it twice
Who cares
Sometimes we do stupid things not realising how stupid it would turn out to be
But at the end of the day
It is for the fun of it
Editing musics for my showcase
Kind of screwed
I liked the down beat
Chill-Lax music
But they like Hot music
Just accommodate
Besides, it is easier to dance to as compared
Learnt how to freeze and hand stand today
My knees are kind of abused
Thank you mother for giving me knee
Thank you god

As time goes by
Life shortens
Would you ever turn back realising
What you could have done better
If I could I would
Different minds
May come up with similar ideas
Shaped in a distinct figure
To identify
One from the other
I do not know why

After UT we went Mcdonald's
It was not my first time disciplining myself not to eat
So it was okay
I was quite shock that our dear friend did not eat
Kind of tempted to eat
But what the hell
Spotted some covered Muslim ladies
They were happily eating despite knowing that I looked
I am shocked indeed
Represent motherfuckers..
I know you may have your unfertilised egg out from your vaginas
But please have some respect
Represent!
If you want to eat
Take of the scarf from your filthy head.

I was quite tickled
By the act of other stupid, I shall say, humans
If I were to come out with gossiping 101
I could actually educate them
But I would not know if their mind were able to take it
If one were to tell something about someone in the near distant
Please...
DO NOT!
Turn straight away
Let everyone turn in unison
Look at them while talking
I am deeply amused
Seriously that guy look like my grandfather
Only with eyebrow piercing
I once thought that eyebrow piercing is cool
Now I know
He uglified the god damn fashion
Thanks man, you really made my day
Made my day into a living nightmare!
Well only for a few seconds
Nitwit!
Aunt and Sister made cookies today!
I fucking love my sister White Rocher!
It is fucking nice!
My new favorite.
Anyway
Thought of discussing with my fellow team mates on the showcase
It appears that my message was not clear
I do not know what is not clear about my fucking message
But I love the fact that I got a lot of time in my hand
Either way
I ended up Love Movie Marathon with my sister
I ended up standing straight to my beliefs
Well
I am just going to shut it down for today
Kind of full after the break of fast
Till then losers...
I wonder why is it so hard to define love
I movie marathon-ed love stories with sister
And I do not quite get it
Is love physical?
Is love about lust?
Is love about understanding?
Or is love everything?
I believe that strong emotions make one feel love
But how would you know that Love is not tentative
Movies always end when it is epic and predicted
They got married
And it ends there
What happens after that?
They never show
Do they get divorced?
Do they have their LOVE for each other fading?
A relationship does not happen because of LOVE...
A relationship happens because you care deeply with whatever is going on with that one person
Their feeling, their day and everything else
You are in love because your heart beats faster whenever you see them
Well it is not Love, it is getting nervous and excited
I just don't like the thought of LOVE.
Why are you getting married to her?
"Oh well, because I love her!"
NOT VALID!
It is because that you know that she is the one.
The one you are able to spend your life with.
The one you care most.
The one whom care for you the most.
The one you enjoy spending time with.

You can find love absent in the ones you so called "love".
But you cannot stop caring for the one you care.

It my opinion
Do not like it
Go jump of the building.


I am so glad that fasting starts today
I do not know why
But I like to fast
Well...
To be more specific
I like the fasting period
Fasting = GOOD FOOD!
I am in dilemma
But I like it
Did nothing much today
I thought I would go out to catch a movie
But too bad...
She is not free
Besides, there are no perfect movie to watch
I would not watch those
"OH SO DREAMY LOVE MOVIES"
Especially with her
I was amazed by the number of things that I can do in one whole perfect day
I feel satisfied
I was looking for songs for the Showcase
And ended up mixing songs instead
Lame ass Black Boy!
Fuck the Tranny!
Ya so sexy.
Sexy fuck Babe!
Just forgot to put that in the posts...
Today was a damp day I shall say
When it gets cold
I am happy
As it gets colder
I am happier
I love to feel as though I am freezing
Shivering down was so hilarious
I felt like going cold turkey once again
Only that this time is without the stomach cramps, nauseous or runny nose
I shall say that it is going well day by day
Everything is dying down
I know deep down
You are just being professional
Although I have my DIS
I shall just let you save your wild emotions
I am kind of scared of my Freshies' Showcase
Despite that I am looking forward to it
I do not know a lot of them
I just can hope for the best
We going back to the streets where we originated from

Please do not type loudly
Because I may just type louder
And disrupt everyone
Well...
I felt that UT can be neglected
Like seriously
Eyes were on me
Making me feel like I have greens on my teeth
Then I found out
Well..
Too bad so sad
I felt unusually different
It was a weird feeling
I know that some are curious
I would not even bother
So long as I know
That is all that matters
Then when UT ended
Lunch at banquet
A time of bomb
I felt like I exploded with offensive words
That describes
Super lazy to blog the little details
I hate to blog about you
But you made me blog about you
By the way
I was not blogging about you until you blog about me
Stop eating sambal please.
Some things were not describable
How happy I am
Call me a heartless
Call me an asshole
I was basically rolling my eyes 1000 times
Knowing that each of them will in the end
Will do the same thing to each other
How real can a fake get?
I can tell that you have no reasons
No acceptable reasons
But it is okay
Look around you
What makes you think that they would not do the same to you
Because you are close?
Keep your friends close enemies closer
Ever heard of it?
Do not show now darling
Only time will allow
The closer you get
The harder you fall
As for the BOOBIES
I doubt they are as fake
Because they are not in mask
Or neither can they fly

Something to think about my sneaky little kittens
You make Karma more exciting


I was kind of late for UT today
Rushed the whole test
I did not regret not studying
Because I know that
If I were to study
I still will not know how to answer the questions
Fucking tricky
I have decided not to be in MASK!
Get real
The UT was kind of screwed
Although I like the fact that there was no jam
Not going to study for science
Because I know it is a confirm fail
Met Iris after school
I miss talking to you
Civic Plaza Starbucks Sucks
In my absolute opinion
I hope I would not be tempted to drink again
It has been awhile since I touched that bottle
A friend of mine choke on her tongue
It was a bad sight...
No matter what....
I know for sure
Our friendship will last
The reason for me to smile everyday
Is you...
Seok Hui, Iris, Haiqal, Mastura, Darshene, Hui Tin, Quin
What I love about you guys:
I love your mind(dirty mind)
Your understanding is what defines you
You are more than a friend to me, like a sibling
You made me feel happy whenever you speak
You are a great friend, Bestfriend.
I shall end here as I hate the emotional part.
IRIS!
I already miss you like crazy!
I would not want to imagine what it would be like if you are already in foreign land

I won't say goodbye
As I hate to untangle the knot we tied so tightly
It seem almost impossible to break
Can I hold on to everyone and never let go?
I never felt this way before
I hate to say it
I .... YOU!
Fill in the blanks with your imagination
Another fresh day
Thanks for hearing all my bad language rantings
I really need you
Seriously owe you one
Watched Orphan
That show is fucking screwed man!
Screwed in a good way
I love the killing part
The never ending stabbing of one till he dies
Is like mere orgasm!
Fuck!
If that was legal
I want to fucking kill
It felt so good imagining
KFC Krushers is a lower graded Mcdonald's Milkshakes
I felt that bubble tea is way better
I felt that....
I am just doing what I do
I like it
And I do what I like
Then you do what I like
Then you like it
Total copycat
Hey, hey, girl! What's your problem?
I see you trying to hurt me bad
Don't know what you're up against
Maybe you should reconsider
Come up with another plan
Cause you know I'm not that kinda guy
That will lay there and let you come first

You can push me out the window
I'll just get back up
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck
And I won't give a fuck
You can hang me like a slave
I'll go underground
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler but
You can't keep me down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, girl! Are you ready for today?
You got your shield and sword?
Cause its time to play the games
You are beautiful
Even though you are not for sure
Don't let him pull you by the scar
You're gonna get your feelings hurt

You can push me out the window
I'll just get back up
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck
And I won't give a fuck
You can hang me like a slave
I'll go underground
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler but
You can't keep me down, down, down, down

Everywhere that I go
There's someone waiting to chain me
Everything that I say
There's someone trying to short-change me
I am only this way
Because of what you have made me
And I'm not gonna break!

You can push me out the window
I'll just get back up
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler truck
And I won't give a fuck
You can hang me like a slave
I'll go underground
You can run over me with your 18 wheeler but
You can't keep me down, down, down, down
Got a haircut today
Not going to rant the same old shit again
I find that there is no need to entertain those swarming bees
That will be the last you ever fucking heard from me
I tried to afresh my day
Saw Alin at Far East
Kind of mortified
As I was alone
I was looking for some alone time and scouting for places
Ideal places for some Arty Farty pictures
In town
Window-shopped a bit
Setting my target on how much to save for next shopping spree
I am losing my appetite nowadays
I think that I have diabetes
But I hope not
I promised myself
I just want to say thank you
Thank you for letting me know
Now I know.....
The crystals may fool the eyes of the diamonds
But I am no diamond
I thank secondary school
Thank you for making me more observant
Now I can differentiate the actors
From the cast
Lets converse through our posts.
Hannah, don't be fooled
You are strong
Get a backbone already
Stand for your own beliefs
I am tired of pretending
Only for you, Hannah.
And Ain....
I do not know when it started.
It felt as though you were the one.
Thank you
Seeds starts to root
Absorbing every nutrient there are to supply
As the hands ticks
Turgid as the stem would be of the nutrients
Branching every dimension of itself
Grow as much leaves to support itself
You look in fine fettle
Days goes as hours goes by
You wilt out of the blue
Was the soil not fertile for you?
Did the pests drain the nutrient away?
I try to revive you
But it is pointless
For you are already deaf
Deaf and dead

Well...
Are you the cause for us to wilt?
I am sure it is partly me.
Only time, we will know
Until now you know you are.
Thanks for the experience
I am nothing but a journalist who writes every moment that I observe clearly.
What I see is what I get.
Draining the brain cells in my head today.
Science was fucking difficult
I felt like leaving class
But in the end did not
I am so fucked up
I would not be a 2 faced bastard
Hate means hate already
I am sick of tired to pretend everything is fine between us when we both know we hate each other
Lets get real everyone
I am sick of talking to people who acts
Get real with me
If you hate say it loud say it proud
For all you know
You are not the only one
Well...
I am obnoxious, direct and too good to be true
I realised that we do not realise how good of a friend is until they leave
I missed Iris
I want to pull her back in and make her stay
But we know she could not
PLANES PLANES PLANES!
Please eh!
Don't leave us!
I want to draw line!
Watched G.I. Joe Today.
I got to commend on myself hehehehe


Lesson was fine today
Got to know that our class was ranked #1 for the Communication UT2
Was quite happy with the ranking
Nevertheless
I am also please with my UT2 results.
Communication: A
Enterprise: A
Mathematics: B
Cognitive: A
Science: C+

I felt that it was just luck
I thought I was going to flunk the UT2
Because I did not study.

More shows are coming up
Excited!
Some things that happened today made me sad
You may dis me now
I will just pray hard for god to change you
And god will not change you overnight
He will teach you a lesson
A lesson you will never forget
So that you will feel what I felt
And that you will not repeat the same mistake again

Sorry Darshini...
If you are hurt...
You can "FUCK" me anytime...
Talking about how your life is ruined by others' talking about you
But you yourself talk about others
Humans cannot live without talking about another
Be it good or bad
Either way
It does not hurt the victim
It entertains the victim
On how people look at them
Make us harder faster better stronger
Daft punk makes my day!
Why you cannot say it straight to my face DARLING?
Today was a non-productive day.
I felt more stupid than ever.
My team scored the lowest and my score for today is the lowest.
Still enjoy the day with my best butts.
I was contemplating whether to go Hip Hop or not cause I have weird tummy pain.
Obviously I go.
Because I am a good kid and passionate dancer.
But I felt that it was a waste of my time.
We are just learning Up and Down Bounce AGAIN!
But more intricate.
The head banging make me nausea.
I realise I dance to much focusing on my chest.
Should relax more.
Apparently I felt like I dance like a weird dancer.
I am not that good okay.
They say that I am blur.
Only time will tell.
In the bus on the way home.
There is this baby who puked in the bus.
The father just pressed the bell and stopped the bus.
And rushed off without cleaning the mess.
And guess what?
It was only the 1st minute since the bus started moving from the interchange.
It was god damn smelly.
Like flour plus condensed milk plus butter and some overdue rice.
Yes I saw the chunks
It is rice chunks.
Too bad no photo.
I thought it will be too disgusting
A seat of two is meant for two
A seat for one is meant for one
If you prefer to occupy 2 seats
Please
Put your scrotum at the other seat so that the unborn child gets to sit
Not me
Am totally pissed by Motherfuckers in the bus who acts like their testicles are so melon-like
That they spread their legs like I am about to fucking fuck them
Please
Be considerate
Yes!
This is for those Uncivilised veterans and soon to be veterans.
Go get your brains developed...
Is consideration for others not thought by your parents?
Or were you busy fucking to even care about consideration?


I must say that today got my juices falling on empty.
My creative juices almost ran dry.
I my brain hurts from too much thinking and creating.
I ate apple crumble which tasted
OKAY...
I felt that OBS apple crumble was way better.
I remembered that time when I crashed to Mujahid's team looking for food.
LOSER!
Good thing they were kind enough as to provide me good food.
Compared to my team who claim they are F&N student when they cook like
WHAT THE FUCK!
Talking about food.
I skipped Hip Hop B-Boying Class today as I was having this feeling of wanting to vomit.
I ate food.
Then I feel like vomiting.
The food was well.
But just that I felt like primary 1 again.
When I puke every time I eat.
I know for sure it is not gastric.
But for what every reason.
Please do not start again.
I do not mind if I have money.
Well...
Vomiting = Empty stomach AGAIN!
Canceled some outing due to the most obvious reason.
Well...
The main reason was they cannot make it.
So why dread...
Probably going to watch G.I Joe some other time.
Well... Soon.
Thought of catching Orphan.
Went grocery shopping, karaoke and eating.
I bought this one baby cologne that I am addicted to.
You guessed it.
Sniffing it for every few minutes.
I mean if I can gulp it down...
I question how many bottles I have to buy.
Despite that...
I am most irritated by control queens
Like seriously.
Not everything have to go your way.
I something does not go your way....
Run along with it.
Roll eyes.
Give attitude.
Convince people.
Go home!
Do something about your life.
Well I am super excited for my Junior Showcase next Semester.
I have been trying out tuttings and foot works.
I am not the best there is to offer.
But I prefer dancing to studying for school.
I prefer dancing with unusual parts rather than just relying on precisions and feet.
I am sure nobody am interested in my ideas.
As it is ambitious.
Nevertheless.
I like to show what I have.
More like a show off.
But a closet show off I shall say.
Nothing much happened today.
When you have money...
You want to spend it all away on the most expensive things.
Well not realising the quality.
Besides that....
Happy birthday Singapore.
May we get more expensive so that it will seem normal being a homeless...

Well I sure do know what it meant.
Do you?
It does apply to me.
It does apply to everyone around me.
Choosing and giving out shoulders.
I find that the dream is a "prophecy"
Trying to show me something.
Thank you for enlightening my soul.
Although it just tell me what to expect on the months.
Well...
I am quite astonished by the actions of our citizens truly.
I took a train ride.
The most shocking thing is Nobody dares to sit beside me after this caucasion woman went off.
First I thought they are against me.
Then I think again.
Maybe it is her.
Then I think again.
Maybe its the seat.
Then I looked at the seat.
There was this white stain on it.
I do not know where it came from neither do I know who stained it.
Well...
Nobody ended up sitting beside me except on my right that is my sister.
Then my cousin's wedding was a totally hole in the wallet.
It was nice.
But I question the motive.
I mean if you want a big wedding.
Book a hotel.
Watched Hangover.
Sister was kind of talking about love to me.
Well sorry.
Ain't buying it.
I am going to pretend I believe.
I do not want to change nobody minds.
Nor do I want a deep conversation about it.
Tired you know.
Maybe I am wrong.
Maybe you are wrong.
Only time will tell.


Friends always makes me happy.
Even though they hurt me sometimes.
I will still smile as I daze upon the day.
Happy Birthday Kelly.
I went into the wrong classroom today.
The best part is I saw hints but never bothered to take note of.
Slacked again.
Ended up drawing the whole board.
Everything seem to turn out to be OK!
Except when attending the IG meeting.
Fuck the president.
Hip Hop is Family.
Not a requirement.
If you do not understand the beat.
Turn you black ass around and keep walking.
Walk till your pants drop with everyone laughing at your puny behind!
I am amazed on how much influence I give to people.
I am sorry.
But if you want to adopt my way of life.
I am sorry you cannot.
It is not as simple as you think it is.
It is complicated at the simplest thing
It may look easy.
But believe me....
I wish I got a Baygon Spray.
So that I can spray it to the pesty eyes.
Which are always observing me.
I am not perfect.
Neither am I that too fucked up.
I am just humans.
Stop trying to dig every detail of me.
Or soon you will find me thinking
That you are stalking me.
Before you dig my a hole for my grave.
Do you even have a hole to bury yourself in.
You know me.
Do you even know yourself?
It is for obvious reason I joined.
But for you as a president to make me feel terrible right before the concert starts is a big question for your professionalism.
I doubt you are capable of managing.
I doubt your ability.
You abuse your rights.
You want respect to come to you without you making the effort to earn it.
I am not like the other people who suck up.
I prefer the family way.
No hierarchy.
Everyone is the same.
I may look blur.
But I am sure I know what is going on.
You only treat people as good as how people tickle you.
All you need to do now is to kick me out.
So that you have one less member to fight for respect.
Peace Love Unity and Having Fun.
Talk about it.
I doubt you!
But today have been great though.
Skipped class.
Chill out.
Sharing session.
Having the concert.
Forgetting about what others say.
I am not got to disclose this to the IG member.
I am totally upset.
I find that he always pick on me.
Lets just wait till you graduate.
Till then, I just have to tolerate you.
Well....
I seemed downright lazy.
I came home earlier than usual..
Well usual nowadays is 11pm.
I reached home at 9pm.
I felt like slacking this whole week.
Do not tell me what I should or should not do.
As there are reasons behind why I do what I do.
I am anticipating my 5 weeks holidays.
Setting plans for what to do.
How to spend it.
Well, it is during the fasting month.
At most what I can do is to draw and metamorphose.
Those privates and weird body parts that people will think is art.
When it is actually beyond art.
Well I do not feel that what I do is art.
I feel that what I do is creating motionless creatures.

Tomorrow will be performing.
Republic Polytechnic
South Agora
4.30pm - 5.00pm
I may look like a NOOB.
But My fart still stinks like a PRO!
Dragging my feet to get to you.
Lifting the lids of my eyes to see you.
Reaching out to hold you.
Everything feels so heavy.
Is gravity pulling me down?
Door knob!
Why are you so fucking far?
You are distancing yourself away from me.
I try to understand you.
But you seemed so full of yourself.
You always thought your way is right.
Burning off heat whenever you disagree.
Giving me faces that I should treat you like a queen not like human being.
Well.
Thank you for preparing me.
I really appreciate it.
One step at a time.
I have trust issues.
Sorry if I were to think rashly about you.
I tried to.
But I am influenced by the voice within.
Nevertheless.
The rehearsal today was a breeze.
Got to go home early and...
I got an A for communication.
I am fucking awesome.
Those of you whom got A should refrain from telling me.
Cause I want to feel special.
Smart Arse!
Dear Eileen,
I hate the way you laugh
I hate the way you talk
I hate the way you walk
I hate the way you sit
I hate the way you flick your hair.
Too bad for me.
You are a part of me.
If I could I would.
It is so clear now.
Thank you for the experience.
Thank you really!
I overslept this morning.
I was a minute late for class.
So confirm going to get a D grade.
I slacked in class today.
I mean I really need to lay back and relax after all these days of hard work.
Yes!
I do think I am performing outstandingly.
My energy was almost drained to zero after that long weekend and nights of little sleep.
Since last week
I have been rehearsing hard for the 3 minutes performance.
I hope it pays.
Today I am dead beat again.
I can fucking sleep my way back home.
I mean if I could walk and rest at the same time I would.
I feel like RP is a school where nobody is real.
Even if you are real.
I doubt so.
Cause everyone is faking the way they feel about each other.
Just cause they are conscious of who they group up with.
Work is work.
Despise means despise.
I do not suck up.
Apparently, I am always there.


It is rather obvious that who I am sticking to.
Relationship problems just went on again.
After Mind's Cafe
We went to shop for my Hip Hop stuff.
Seok Hui's first time to Lucky Plaza.
I am so sad.
Sad and stress for everything that everyone is going through.
Just because.....

Sorry but I do not believe.
I am sorry for triggering the wrong feelings.
I just want things to go slow.
Not that we cannot be.
It is just that I would not be.
I would not say it.
But I would answer "you too"

Today was expensive
yet worth it.
I was nagged at for coming home late.
Ate then went to sleep.
We went cycling.
It was the best thing that can happen today.
Followed Haiqal to his performance.
Then went to Haji Lane for Sheesha.
It was weird.
As we are not yet 18.
The place almost got raided.
But....
Never.
So much things to say.
But too tired to start.